A friend and I were discussing one day about abuse. About how the signs of physical abuse heal; cuts and bruises heal and so do broken bones. But emotional abuse is like getting 3rd degree burns on the inside, and little triggers or continued abuse opens those raw wounds up, and you feel like you’ve been put into the fire and burned all over again.
It is time to stop wounding the wounds, revisiting those experiences, reminding yourself and others of them. Stop and look at why you are revisiting, why you are allowing yourself to be wounded over and over again. Is that relationship worth it? Or do you believe you are not worth more than that?
For years I considered myself a doormat, people could just walk all over me, leave their dirt and grime behind on me. It was I who decided enough. It was I who decided that I was worth more than a dumping ground and something to be used. I started to believe I could take charge of something I didn’t like and learn to change it. It was time to start standing up for myself, to take charge, to believe I was better, and most important leave that part of myself behind.
It does not serve to keep going back to it, because the more you revisit the old unwanted the more it is just recreated. So think about what is wanted, how it is wanted, tell it to the heart core center. Send it out to the Universal love. And let it be.